[ She knew he hadn't done anything wrong. But she hoped at least he would understand why bringing in a girl like that after a pretty long separation was in bad taste, especially considering what her insecurities were. The side-character, always on the sidelines and watching others get their happy ending. ]
I know I shouldn't be jealous, you didn't do anything wrong... [She sighed. Maybe she should be frank. It wasn't healthy to keep in all those doubts inside, was it?] But it's getting hard on me, you know? Our "open" relationship. We agreed to it and due to the nature of this world, it's hard to do things otherwise.
[ She closed her hands into fists and looked down. ]
Yet, it hurts so much whenever I think of you doing "things" with someone else...! [Her voice was starting to break down, though she wasn't tearing up. Yet.] I thought I'd get used to it, but it's so hard...
[Part of him briefly feels indignant because it almost sounded like he was accused of doing "things" during his absence when he has done nothing of the sort, but half-drunk as he may be, he manages to see what the issue is beyond this situation after a brief moment.
On one hand, he can be glad that Monika opened up about her issues, despite their discussions and agreement before beginning their relationship. On the other, it's difficult to offer a solution that aren't unfeasible like ignoring the urges the world forced onto them. Already he has avoided doing "things" with people when his mind wasn't affected, even with friends he regularly done with prior to this relationship. Easily done when he has no urges of the sort. Their permanent link was not only to make their bond closer but also so that she can share a part of his happiness even when he's elsewhere, but now he isn't certain if that has helped with lessening the jealousy or enforced it.
Of course, he still want to help it make things easier for her and not doubt at the fact that he truly does love her while at the same time not compromised himself too much from what he's allowed to do, but he's at a loss as to what to do.
Soundwave is silent for a few seconds, arms still wrapped around her.]
... Do you know that I love you?
[It's a silly question, considering that Monika could literally feel his emotions. She's always been the center of his spark, always, at all time.]
[ She closed her eyes and fought back the tears. Of course she knew. She could feel it, but she didn't even need to. She just knew. There was nothing rational about that. Well, most women would probably give a stern talking to to their boyfriend for bringing another woman home like that, even if she's just a friend...
But that should end there. It shouldn't bring about such painful emotions. Yet again, most women didn't have her background. ]
I know...
[ But just knowing something was never enough to push away all irrational fears, was it? More so when she came from a reality where she had always been in the shadow of everyone else. ]
I'm so afraid of losing you... That at any moment another woman will come and give the lie to the illusion I am. [She placed her hand upon his.] Ahaha, so much for me having healed, huh?
You are not an illusion, love. And I won't ever leave you for another.
[He hopes his words does help to reassure her once more that he is always ever faithful to her. They've done the four rites and soon they'll eventually going to go through the traditional human marriage, Soundwave doesn't love anybody like he does Monika. Nothing on this world or another could change that.
His arms around her tightens slightly more.]
Your 'healing' is still an ongoing process, Monika. ... We would need to build up your self-esteem some more.
[Soundwave breaks the embrace, but only so that he can look into her eyes, steppingto face in front of her and cupping hands on both side of her cheeks to coax her eyes open.]
You are not some side character in my optics, understand?
[ His word did help, more than he could imagine. He always found the right words for her, huh? Well, that wasn't the only factor. Being alone with her own thoughts, she was quick to imagine the worst possible outcomes. She was still so dependent on love-- On him. If he was to disappear...
Any healing, any progress she'd made would be all gone. That was wrong, she knew it. You could not depend so much on one person to the point your life would collapse without them. Maybe that, too, needed fixing.
But that was the only way she knew to love. ]
Ahaha, I feel so silly...
[ She smiled at him with tears in her eyes, before burying her head in his shoulder. ]
I do. I do... [She sniffled and took a deep breath, before trying to speak on a joking tone.] You sure you still don't have any regrets? You may have to deal with me having weird crisis like that for a while, ahaha...
[His arms wrap around her as she buries her face in his shoulder, brushing her head to comfort like how he's done many times to her before. It's something he's starting to realize the more he's done it, but he doesn't mind it at all. In some way, he can sympathize with her depending so much on one person. Perhaps not at the extreme where his entire life would collapse without that person. Regardless, he promised to not disappear on her, and he's done some studies to find a permanent way for them to live on this planet, after whenever the Cardinal Gem ascended.
That's something to worry about later.]
I am sure. I have already accepted that part of you is something I may have to deal with at times, have I not?
[ She smiled in his embrace, finally calming down. Gosh, she hated so much the way she could be when her emotions took over... She could see herself slip back into her old mindset so easily and quickly without the right kind of support. After a moment of silence, she pulled back away and looked up at her beloved. ]
Thank you, Soundwave. [She closed an eye in a wink.] You really are my hero always taking me back from the brink, ahaha...!
[What's a relationship without some fights? Fortunately, they both didn't say anything to each other that may cause too much regret and Monika had calmed down. And hey, there's that rare smile of his when Monika pulled away.]
If you say so. Shall we finally eat dinner together? And then...
[He leans closer to Monika, whisper to her ear in a low tone, fingers tugging lightly on her shirt.]
I want to eat you next. [It's easier to flirt and talk like this when he's drunk, huh.]
[ Monika laughed and blushed at the implications, before turning around towards the kitchen. ]
Monikas aren't part of one's recommended healthy diet. They can be the slightest bit difficult to digest. [She said on a joking tone before pressing a brief kiss on his cheek.] But they say when you can stomach them, they're an absolute delight~!
[ With a laugh, she then went to the kitchen to fetch the meal she'd prepared. As usual whenever she prepared something, it was vegetarian... But it was pretty good! She'd made some serious progress of late. ]
The weekly night dessert is what I looked forward the most.
[Continuing with his own joking tone, he then takes a seat at the table while he waits. Ever since Monika moved here, he's been eating more and more vegetarian meals than... None at all actually. Though just like any other meal he ate in his holoavatar, they benefit him none all but making Monika happy whenever he tried them.
So, when the dish is on the table, he doesn't wait to take a bite of Monika's cooking. A pleased hum emits after he swallowed.]
[ The benefit is all in the pleasure derived from eating fine dishes! Monika was very happy to see her cooking had gotten even better. ]
Meat substitutes on this world are amazing. They're a tad more expensive than the real thing, but the taste is virtually indistinguishable. The day we'll have children they'll be treated to the best dishes, ahaha~
[ Did she say that as a joke? Did she mean it? Unfortunately, that's impossible to know. ]
[ Oh... He caught up on that, huh? Well it's his fault for managing to put her in a good mood! ]
Mhm! [She replied with a nod and a smile.] Well not anytime soon of course... But it's something worth thinking about and discussing sometimes, don't you think?
[ She still wanted to have some year of freedom... And of course, he would have to approve too. She would never force him into becoming a father, of course. But there's no harm in planting the seeds of an idea, right? ]
[He more or less heard that Gembonded aren't capable of getting pregnant here, never mind that Soundwave is totally incapable of reproducing offsprings in a similar manner to human anyway. So, adoption seems like the most logical answer.
But that's all besides the point, there's still some uncertainty in him.]
Maybe. I am not certain I could take care of kids well.
[As if his Minicon friends never acted like bratty children before. He has some experience.]
[ She didn't mind all that much the inability to get pregnant. Well, she would have loved to become a mother the regular way... But there was so much going on well in her life, she wasn't going to complain about that. ]
Come now, I can already see you wearing a "#1 Dad" shirt. [She giggled.] Imagine all the children running after you!
[ The mental image was so adorable, she couldn't help but close her eyes and sigh happily. ]
[While Monika's in her happy daydream, Soundwave's eyes lowers as he tries to imagine such an image as well. He comes out of it with the total opposite of Monika's reaction.]
[ Oh no! What a fatal mistake he made in the midst of this emotional turmoil. For while Monika gets up to grab a bottle of wine, she does serve a glass for herself— And drink it!
It's pretty amazing how her alcohol resistance seems to get weaker with time. ]
Daddy Soundy has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?
[ She's not drunk yet, thankfully. So she hands him over his glass. ]
[It was too late. Monika had helped herself to a glass before he could stop her. She isn't drunk yet, thankfully, but he makes sure that there's no network access around her. Just in case. Soundwave takes the glass and thanks her before commenting on... "Daddy Soundwave".]
I would rather not have that as my nickname.
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Are you sure you should be drinking wine, Monika? You... Do recall how that went last time.
[Soundwave can't ever forget that humiliating moment.]
[ She seated herself back down on her seat, and looked at him. ]
If I never drink, I'll never build a tolerance to alcohol. [To her it was a beautiful, not humiliating, moment.] And who better to drink with than the one person I love and trust more than anyone else in the world?
[ What's that? She's filling her glass again? Two drinks should be a good test. ]
[No improvement can be made if she never ventured forward. Though it doesn't erase the concern fully, considering how much of a lightweight she was. Soundwave had a lot of drinks before he returned home, so he'll be a little more cautious about the number of wine glasses he'll take. Someone here has to be sober enough to stop the other from doing something incredibly stupid.
Soundwave hasn't taken a sip yet as Monika starts to pour herself a second glass, so he waits for her instead, then raises his own, expecting Monika to do the same.]
If it starts to look like you don't need any more drinks, I am taking the wine bottle from your hands. [One stern voice before they can enjoy the night drinking together.]
[ Gosh, he was behaving as if she'd done something terrible in the past under the influence of alcohol! ... Well, she had, but it hadn't been that bad, had it been? She raised her glass as well and smiled. ]
I'll stop at two glasses for the day. [She winked at him.] I'm already feeling my cheeks burning, ahaha!
[ Yep, it was going as quickly as ever... But still, she approached her glass to his. Time for a toast, huh? ]
To you, my love, and the happy ending we have together~!
Of course you are. I simply want to avoid something embarrassing from happening again.
[Well, if she's serious about building up her tolerance, then he won't stop her. Hopefully one day he'll get to have a night where he could drink with her without worry. Probably be a while, though.
Soundwave clinks his glass to Monika's]
To our happy ending.
[With that, he takes a sip of his glass but his eyes remained on Monika to watch her.]
[ Monika sipped at her glass, and then stared intently at Soundwave upon lowering it. It looked like she wanted to say something but held herself back. Ere long, she finally spoke: ]
If we get a girl, we should call her Minika.
[ She laughed as if she'd made the funniest joke in the whole world. Yup, the second glass had done the trick. ]
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[ She knew he hadn't done anything wrong. But she hoped at least he would understand why bringing in a girl like that after a pretty long separation was in bad taste, especially considering what her insecurities were. The side-character, always on the sidelines and watching others get their happy ending. ]
I know I shouldn't be jealous, you didn't do anything wrong... [She sighed. Maybe she should be frank. It wasn't healthy to keep in all those doubts inside, was it?] But it's getting hard on me, you know? Our "open" relationship. We agreed to it and due to the nature of this world, it's hard to do things otherwise.
[ She closed her hands into fists and looked down. ]
Yet, it hurts so much whenever I think of you doing "things" with someone else...! [Her voice was starting to break down, though she wasn't tearing up. Yet.] I thought I'd get used to it, but it's so hard...
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On one hand, he can be glad that Monika opened up about her issues, despite their discussions and agreement before beginning their relationship. On the other, it's difficult to offer a solution that aren't unfeasible like ignoring the urges the world forced onto them. Already he has avoided doing "things" with people when his mind wasn't affected, even with friends he regularly done with prior to this relationship. Easily done when he has no urges of the sort. Their permanent link was not only to make their bond closer but also so that she can share a part of his happiness even when he's elsewhere, but now he isn't certain if that has helped with lessening the jealousy or enforced it.
Of course, he still want to help it make things easier for her and not doubt at the fact that he truly does love her while at the same time not compromised himself too much from what he's allowed to do, but he's at a loss as to what to do.
Soundwave is silent for a few seconds, arms still wrapped around her.]
... Do you know that I love you?
[It's a silly question, considering that Monika could literally feel his emotions. She's always been the center of his spark, always, at all time.]
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But that should end there. It shouldn't bring about such painful emotions. Yet again, most women didn't have her background. ]
I know...
[ But just knowing something was never enough to push away all irrational fears, was it? More so when she came from a reality where she had always been in the shadow of everyone else. ]
I'm so afraid of losing you... That at any moment another woman will come and give the lie to the illusion I am. [She placed her hand upon his.] Ahaha, so much for me having healed, huh?
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[He hopes his words does help to reassure her once more that he is always ever faithful to her. They've done the four rites and soon they'll eventually going to go through the traditional human marriage, Soundwave doesn't love anybody like he does Monika. Nothing on this world or another could change that.
His arms around her tightens slightly more.]
Your 'healing' is still an ongoing process, Monika. ... We would need to build up your self-esteem some more.
[Soundwave breaks the embrace, but only so that he can look into her eyes, steppingto face in front of her and cupping hands on both side of her cheeks to coax her eyes open.]
You are not some side character in my optics, understand?
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Any healing, any progress she'd made would be all gone. That was wrong, she knew it. You could not depend so much on one person to the point your life would collapse without them. Maybe that, too, needed fixing.
But that was the only way she knew to love. ]
Ahaha, I feel so silly...
[ She smiled at him with tears in her eyes, before burying her head in his shoulder. ]
I do. I do... [She sniffled and took a deep breath, before trying to speak on a joking tone.] You sure you still don't have any regrets? You may have to deal with me having weird crisis like that for a while, ahaha...
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That's something to worry about later.]
I am sure. I have already accepted that part of you is something I may have to deal with at times, have I not?
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[ She smiled in his embrace, finally calming down. Gosh, she hated so much the way she could be when her emotions took over... She could see herself slip back into her old mindset so easily and quickly without the right kind of support. After a moment of silence, she pulled back away and looked up at her beloved. ]
Thank you, Soundwave. [She closed an eye in a wink.] You really are my hero always taking me back from the brink, ahaha...!
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If you say so. Shall we finally eat dinner together? And then...
[He leans closer to Monika, whisper to her ear in a low tone, fingers tugging lightly on her shirt.]
I want to eat you next. [It's easier to flirt and talk like this when he's drunk, huh.]
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Monikas aren't part of one's recommended healthy diet. They can be the slightest bit difficult to digest. [She said on a joking tone before pressing a brief kiss on his cheek.] But they say when you can stomach them, they're an absolute delight~!
[ With a laugh, she then went to the kitchen to fetch the meal she'd prepared. As usual whenever she prepared something, it was vegetarian... But it was pretty good! She'd made some serious progress of late. ]
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[Continuing with his own joking tone, he then takes a seat at the table while he waits. Ever since Monika moved here, he's been eating more and more vegetarian meals than... None at all actually. Though just like any other meal he ate in his holoavatar, they benefit him none all but making Monika happy whenever he tried them.
So, when the dish is on the table, he doesn't wait to take a bite of Monika's cooking. A pleased hum emits after he swallowed.]
These taste better than the last one.
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[ The benefit is all in the pleasure derived from eating fine dishes! Monika was very happy to see her cooking had gotten even better. ]
Meat substitutes on this world are amazing. They're a tad more expensive than the real thing, but the taste is virtually indistinguishable. The day we'll have children they'll be treated to the best dishes, ahaha~
[ Did she say that as a joke? Did she mean it? Unfortunately, that's impossible to know. ]
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...... You mean we'll be adopting children?
[His face remain impassive but there's a dash of uncertainty in his tone, whether to take Monika seriously or not.]
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Mhm! [She replied with a nod and a smile.] Well not anytime soon of course... But it's something worth thinking about and discussing sometimes, don't you think?
[ She still wanted to have some year of freedom... And of course, he would have to approve too. She would never force him into becoming a father, of course. But there's no harm in planting the seeds of an idea, right? ]
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But that's all besides the point, there's still some uncertainty in him.]
Maybe. I am not certain I could take care of kids well.
[As if his Minicon friends never acted like bratty children before. He has some experience.]
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Come now, I can already see you wearing a "#1 Dad" shirt. [She giggled.] Imagine all the children running after you!
[ The mental image was so adorable, she couldn't help but close her eyes and sigh happily. ]
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... That is an horrifying image.
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Daddy Soundy~ [She giggled.] Gosh, I can't wait...
[ She opens her eyes anew and looks at him with a smile. Their future certainly seems to be a bright one! ]
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And wish to abort this subject. At the same time, he doesn't want to squander her apparent enthusiasm at the idea.]
Hmm.... Monika, could you grab me a drink?
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It's pretty amazing how her alcohol resistance seems to get weaker with time. ]
Daddy Soundy has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?
[ She's not drunk yet, thankfully. So she hands him over his glass. ]
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[It was too late. Monika had helped herself to a glass before he could stop her. She isn't drunk yet, thankfully, but he makes sure that there's no network access around her. Just in case. Soundwave takes the glass and thanks her before commenting on... "Daddy Soundwave".]
I would rather not have that as my nickname.
[...]
Are you sure you should be drinking wine, Monika? You... Do recall how that went last time.
[Soundwave can't ever forget that humiliating moment.]
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[ She seated herself back down on her seat, and looked at him. ]
If I never drink, I'll never build a tolerance to alcohol. [To her it was a beautiful, not humiliating, moment.] And who better to drink with than the one person I love and trust more than anyone else in the world?
[ What's that? She's filling her glass again? Two drinks should be a good test. ]
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[No improvement can be made if she never ventured forward. Though it doesn't erase the concern fully, considering how much of a lightweight she was. Soundwave had a lot of drinks before he returned home, so he'll be a little more cautious about the number of wine glasses he'll take. Someone here has to be sober enough to stop the other from doing something incredibly stupid.
Soundwave hasn't taken a sip yet as Monika starts to pour herself a second glass, so he waits for her instead, then raises his own, expecting Monika to do the same.]
If it starts to look like you don't need any more drinks, I am taking the wine bottle from your hands. [One stern voice before they can enjoy the night drinking together.]
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[ Gosh, he was behaving as if she'd done something terrible in the past under the influence of alcohol! ... Well, she had, but it hadn't been that bad, had it been? She raised her glass as well and smiled. ]
I'll stop at two glasses for the day. [She winked at him.] I'm already feeling my cheeks burning, ahaha!
[ Yep, it was going as quickly as ever... But still, she approached her glass to his. Time for a toast, huh? ]
To you, my love, and the happy ending we have together~!
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[Well, if she's serious about building up her tolerance, then he won't stop her. Hopefully one day he'll get to have a night where he could drink with her without worry. Probably be a while, though.
Soundwave clinks his glass to Monika's]
To our happy ending.
[With that, he takes a sip of his glass but his eyes remained on Monika to watch her.]
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If we get a girl, we should call her Minika.
[ She laughed as if she'd made the funniest joke in the whole world. Yup, the second glass had done the trick. ]
How about Soundwave Junior if it's a boy?
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