[ Which surely she is, but he feels obligated to say it regardless. There's a bit of a lull between the first message and the second as he deliberates how much he wants to pry into her personal life. ]
[ She was a bit worried to be sure, but she didn't really think anyone would vandalize the store. No, the real problem for her was the context surrounding the violence. Why it was happening in the first place. ]
More and more people are getting vocal about finding ways to send us back home. Not just our enemies, but fellow gembondeds too. And while I would never want to keep anyone here against their will... They don't realize there are some among us whose home is a nightmare.
[ He remembers the little she's told him about her home and how miserable she'd made it sound. Understandable that the possibility of such a thing would alarm her now. ]
There's no guarantee it'll happen. Even if it does, it might be possible to convince them to let you stay.
I know... But that's a bit of an irrational fear, you know? Someone who has known hunger will get a lot more anxious at the mention of food shortages than someone who has never had to look for food.
Besides, truth to be told... I am dead back home. So it's not like my boyfriend could cross the multiverse to rescue me if I got sent back, you know? And while I once thought death to be the better option... I'd rather live now.
[ She hadn't really planned to speak of that, but... This reply comes in several minutes late, too. ]
I took my own life, after a fashion. The situation in my homeworld had reached a point where things were truly hopeless. I didn't see any point in continuing there was no hope of things ever getting better.
[ And immediately after: ]
Please don't worry, I'm not suicidal. When I say things were hopeless, I do mean it. If anything, I want to believe I lasted longer than most people would have.
[ A minute passes and then two, Eustace gazing at the wall in front of him, eyes sightless as he thinks about Monika's reply. Even if the subject of death is nothing new to him, it's a heavy topic nonetheless. ]
I'm sorry.
[ For leading the discussion down this path, for prompting her to explain this to someone she's known for a handful of months. For many things, but mostly for having to suffer through an existence full of emptiness and despair. ]
Understandable that you wouldn't want to go back then. Have you talked to your boyfriend about your worries?
I have, yes. He's such a sweetheart, he's doing everything he can to comfort and reassure me. But there's little he, or anyone, can do.
[ A pause after that message. ]
And that's a bit terrifying.
[ Like she'd told him: she wasn't suicidal. Now that she knew what the real world was like and had a taste of happiness, she would fight tooth and nail to never go back and remain alive. ]
[ If she's talked to her boyfriend about it, then there's not much else he can do or say. He has about as much power as anyone else does in this situation (which is to say: very little) and he's never been the type of person to offer false hope or make promises he can't keep.
Still. It's frustrating to be able to do so little. ]
If I hear anything new I'll let you know.
[ And then, a minute later: ]
If you need a distraction, I can also bring the dogs over.
Ahaha! If you ever have time, sure! I definitely should get them a bone or something, they were such good boys last time I saw them.
[ The change of subject was a good thing-- It was getting hard not to be overly emotional when literally her everything was at stake. That and the offer was super-welcome and really, she should consider getting her own doggo sometimes. They were so affectionate... ]
If you want, you could come later today. The shop is closed for the week... I had two new friends who worked there, but they have disappeared. I guess they're back in their homeworld and safe.
[ Yeah, she'd forgotten to mention that. Because obviously, things could always get worse. ]
With the current events, it's hard to find gems willing to take their jobs... But I should have someone by next week. Till then I'm working at home, little old me isn't enough to run the shop and I can't ask my boyfriend to do three person's jobs, ahaha!
[ Ah....he's had friends come and go, and while such a thing gets easier over time, he can't say it's ever truly easy. It must be even less easy when said friends were helping out and offering support in other ways.
Given everything happening at the moment, the bookstore will probably be fine for a few more weeks. But after that... ]
I'll help. Though I'm better at organizing and restocking than interacting with customers.
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Have you been keeping safe?
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[ She was glad he'd taken news from her though. Had they finally reached the "friend" status? ]
What about you? I hope everything is fine.
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[ Which surely she is, but he feels obligated to say it regardless. There's a bit of a lull between the first message and the second as he deliberates how much he wants to pry into her personal life. ]
Worried about your business?
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[ She was a bit worried to be sure, but she didn't really think anyone would vandalize the store. No, the real problem for her was the context surrounding the violence. Why it was happening in the first place. ]
More and more people are getting vocal about finding ways to send us back home. Not just our enemies, but fellow gembondeds too. And while I would never want to keep anyone here against their will... They don't realize there are some among us whose home is a nightmare.
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There's no guarantee it'll happen. Even if it does, it might be possible to convince them to let you stay.
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Besides, truth to be told... I am dead back home. So it's not like my boyfriend could cross the multiverse to rescue me if I got sent back, you know? And while I once thought death to be the better option... I'd rather live now.
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Do you remember dying? Or did someone tell you?
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I took my own life, after a fashion. The situation in my homeworld had reached a point where things were truly hopeless. I didn't see any point in continuing there was no hope of things ever getting better.
[ And immediately after: ]
Please don't worry, I'm not suicidal. When I say things were hopeless, I do mean it. If anything, I want to believe I lasted longer than most people would have.
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I'm sorry.
[ For leading the discussion down this path, for prompting her to explain this to someone she's known for a handful of months. For many things, but mostly for having to suffer through an existence full of emptiness and despair. ]
Understandable that you wouldn't want to go back then. Have you talked to your boyfriend about your worries?
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[ A pause after that message. ]
And that's a bit terrifying.
[ Like she'd told him: she wasn't suicidal. Now that she knew what the real world was like and had a taste of happiness, she would fight tooth and nail to never go back and remain alive. ]
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Still. It's frustrating to be able to do so little. ]
If I hear anything new I'll let you know.
[ And then, a minute later: ]
If you need a distraction, I can also bring the dogs over.
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[ The change of subject was a good thing-- It was getting hard not to be overly emotional when literally her everything was at stake. That and the offer was super-welcome and really, she should consider getting her own doggo sometimes. They were so affectionate... ]
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[ Too much time....half a year spent in this place and he still hasn't gotten a job. Truly he's turning in a bum. ]
Just name a time and I can bring them over.
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[ Yeah, she'd forgotten to mention that. Because obviously, things could always get worse. ]
With the current events, it's hard to find gems willing to take their jobs... But I should have someone by next week. Till then I'm working at home, little old me isn't enough to run the shop and I can't ask my boyfriend to do three person's jobs, ahaha!
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Given everything happening at the moment, the bookstore will probably be fine for a few more weeks. But after that... ]
I'll help. Though I'm better at organizing and restocking than interacting with customers.
[ But she probably knows that much by now. ]
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No, don't worry about it. I'll be fine really.
Just bring the doggos when you have time, okie?
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[ He ain't gonna push if that's how it really is. ]
But if you do need the extra help at some point, just let me know. I have time on my hands.
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Guess I really did succeed in befriending you, ahaha!
[ Why, she'd rather end this conversation on a teasing note than on a downer. ]