Yes, I can understand that...although, I find that treasured happiness is also tinged with fear once you have seen the depths of darkness. After all, if you have slipped and fallen from the mountaintop once, you know exactly what will become of you should you fall a second time.
...But that is only my own observations. Happiness, and the pursuit of it, is never a simple matter, is it?
Vengeance, huh? [She was obviously very surprised at the offer.] I don't know... I can't think of any stories where the act of getting revenge helped the one who sought it. Often, it only makes matters worse.
[ It would be a lie if she said the thought had never crossed her mind. Her creator, the man who had created her reality for the sole purpose of torturing her, was prime amongst those she despised. Then there was the player, for whom she still had feelings in spite of being utterly disgusted by their behavior. And now, Kipposhi had joined those ranks. ]
Besides, two of the people who've wronged me are out of reach. As for the third... [She sighed.] I am inclined to believe he is more stupid than malevolent.
You speak as if you've read many such stories? In my experience...it at least left me with the satisfaction of seeing him suffer.
[In her case, her 'famed vengeance' that she'd spoken of in their last conversation...well, it didn't improve her situation, but without anything to lose, she could at least make Jason feel something of the pain she did.
Still, Monika's comment made her wonder if she knew her own legend.]
Stupidity or malevolence, hm? I wonder how much difference that makes... Well, I'll leave the choice with you, all the same.
I am quite an avid reader. Besides... [A pause.] Let's say I am very familiar with what themes and ideas are oft repeated in stories throughout the ages.
[ Tropes. She means tropes. As for now though, she had whatsoever no clue on whoever "Caster" really was. Way too many people in history and myths that followed the path to vengeance for that alone to clue her in... Well, she knows magic too. But she's not linking any dots just yet. ]
And in spite of it all, I still long for a happy ending. I don't know if risking it all for fleeting satisfaction would be worth it... Though believe me, I can sympathize. It would be a lie if I claimed to never have entertained the thought. [She forced a smile.] I guess I want to be hopeful. It is because I hope for a happy ending that I was ready to sacrifice my memories in the first place... Though depending on what the future holds for me, it might very well be naivety rather than hopefulness.
Many myths and legends hold their similarities...and the stories born from them, likewise.
[Yes, it seemed likely, then, that she would know her name if she spoke it. She'd have to tread carefully.
That yearning for a happy ending- that was something she felt strongly.]
...naivety or not, so long as you can fight for your happy ending, then you should. Trying to grasp that, no matter what we need to do in the process...sometimes that is all we can do.
It is not my place to tell you what you 'deserve', so I won't, but I want you find that happiness.
Mhm. That's human nature, I guess... No matter the ages, some things do not change.
[ Even though neither of them could be defined as "normal" human. But that word held greater meaning than just strictly the race, didn't it? Drake wasn't human but mentally was in all point identical to what one would call a human. Maybe they should find a different word than humanity to define the nature of sentient beings everywhere ]
Thank you kindly. [She smiled.] I hope you will as well. You have shown me nothing but kindness, and Homura trusted you. It is enough for me to say you deserve it.
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Thank you!
...But that is only my own observations. Happiness, and the pursuit of it, is never a simple matter, is it?
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[ Thank you, player. Thank you, Kipposhi. She shall never forget how much you've done to ruin her life. ]
You are correct. I'm sorry-- I hope my own experience with that didn't unearth painful memories for you.
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But you don't owe me any apologies.
[A pause for thought, as Caster tried to study Monika's expression. Was there someone here who'd hurt her? Someone from home?]
...If you wish to enact vengeance on the ones who've wronged you and want my help, do let me know.
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[ It would be a lie if she said the thought had never crossed her mind. Her creator, the man who had created her reality for the sole purpose of torturing her, was prime amongst those she despised. Then there was the player, for whom she still had feelings in spite of being utterly disgusted by their behavior. And now, Kipposhi had joined those ranks. ]
Besides, two of the people who've wronged me are out of reach. As for the third... [She sighed.] I am inclined to believe he is more stupid than malevolent.
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[In her case, her 'famed vengeance' that she'd spoken of in their last conversation...well, it didn't improve her situation, but without anything to lose, she could at least make Jason feel something of the pain she did.
Still, Monika's comment made her wonder if she knew her own legend.]
Stupidity or malevolence, hm? I wonder how much difference that makes... Well, I'll leave the choice with you, all the same.
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[ Tropes. She means tropes. As for now though, she had whatsoever no clue on whoever "Caster" really was. Way too many people in history and myths that followed the path to vengeance for that alone to clue her in... Well, she knows magic too. But she's not linking any dots just yet. ]
And in spite of it all, I still long for a happy ending. I don't know if risking it all for fleeting satisfaction would be worth it... Though believe me, I can sympathize. It would be a lie if I claimed to never have entertained the thought. [She forced a smile.] I guess I want to be hopeful. It is because I hope for a happy ending that I was ready to sacrifice my memories in the first place... Though depending on what the future holds for me, it might very well be naivety rather than hopefulness.
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[Yes, it seemed likely, then, that she would know her name if she spoke it. She'd have to tread carefully.
That yearning for a happy ending- that was something she felt strongly.]
...naivety or not, so long as you can fight for your happy ending, then you should. Trying to grasp that, no matter what we need to do in the process...sometimes that is all we can do.
It is not my place to tell you what you 'deserve', so I won't, but I want you find that happiness.
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[ Even though neither of them could be defined as "normal" human. But that word held greater meaning than just strictly the race, didn't it? Drake wasn't human but mentally was in all point identical to what one would call a human. Maybe they should find a different word than humanity to define the nature of sentient beings everywhere ]
Thank you kindly. [She smiled.] I hope you will as well. You have shown me nothing but kindness, and Homura trusted you. It is enough for me to say you deserve it.