You're too sweet~ Always looking out for others! I'll have dinner ready for three persons then.
[ She's gonna prepare the table with the silverware and all. What do you mean, silver is harmful to vampires? Maybe she should pass by a shop before he comes home, to get some silver bullets for a shotgun. If only there was a church she could stop by to get the water she'll have at table blessed... ]
Be careful though. Some girls are shameless when it comes to tricks. She could have said she hasn't found a place to stay simply because she hopes to spend the night in your bed.
[Monika please. She's just his new impromptu drinking buddy.]
Your warning is noted. I doubt she has any such plans with me, and I know when someone's lying.
Plus, my bed is only reserved for you and me.
[Well, ever since their relationship became official he limits his bed to Monika only.]
As for dinner, it would be unnecessary to make it for three. I have the feeling she'll still be sleeping when I arrived. If you are still so inclined though, I won't stop you.
[Lesson learned? Soundwave knows that Monika doesn't like it when he's around other girls but she seems to be mad even with such a relatively innocent reason. So he's left with the impression that maybe he shouldn't be bringing anyone home after a long absence or some night bar hopping, boys or girls. Well, he also knows that her jealousy is something she's still working on, so he can't be miffed about it when that is something he had already accepted about her.
He left the text on read, something Monika should be used to with him by now. He's not all that great at text conversation, still. Hours afterward, Soundwave finally returns, carries his drunk passed out friend with his holoavatar, greets her with a kiss if she's waiting for him at the front door, and then proceeds to tuck his new friend in himself at the free room. Once that's done, wherever Monika may be waiting, Soundwave finds her and hugs her from behind, pressing his face against her head.]
Monika...
[While the avatar doesn't reek of alcohol, all thanks to him being able to dematerialize and materialize the avatar at will for the stench to not stick, he does seem a bit woobly and not able to stand straight, slightly out of it.]
[ In all fairness, she's not sure anyone would be happy seeing their significant other come back from a long trip carrying another woman while being half-drunk. She smiles(?) at him when he comes home and kiss her, though that smile is a tad... Forced, maybe?
She then continues preparing the table till he's done finding a spot for his new "friend." ]
It looks like you had fun over there.
[ Monika's voice is... Strange. She sounds like she's forcing herself to sound normal. And her entire body feels a lot stiffer than usual when he hugs her from behind.
Yes yes she know, that open relationship bullshit business and all. But it's harder to swallow when he brings the girl back home. Because even if they haven't actually done anything, she's sure they will ere long whether it's in their bed or somewhere else. ]
[Oh jeez, she's still mad. He shouldn't have thought that a kiss will alleviate her jealousy. Of course it wouldn't. Won't stop his plan to canoodle with her to make up for the lost time, anyway, if Monika allowed it. But... He's feeling all around awkward now, and it translates on the avatar's face.
And it would be a lie to say that he didn't had fun. It has been a long while since Soundwave drank freely with someone. He knows better than to say that to Monika.]
... Sorry.
[He's not sure what else to say to her exactly. Soundwave doesn't feel like he's done any wrong, though failing to see her actual problem. It's not the first time he had to carry someone home either to theirs or his place after a late night (though it is technically the first on this world) and it just so happened that his newfound drinking partner is a girl and a new arrival without a home. The latter is the main reason why he invited her. Regardless, he could tell Monika is still mad at him through their link.]
[ She knew he hadn't done anything wrong. But she hoped at least he would understand why bringing in a girl like that after a pretty long separation was in bad taste, especially considering what her insecurities were. The side-character, always on the sidelines and watching others get their happy ending. ]
I know I shouldn't be jealous, you didn't do anything wrong... [She sighed. Maybe she should be frank. It wasn't healthy to keep in all those doubts inside, was it?] But it's getting hard on me, you know? Our "open" relationship. We agreed to it and due to the nature of this world, it's hard to do things otherwise.
[ She closed her hands into fists and looked down. ]
Yet, it hurts so much whenever I think of you doing "things" with someone else...! [Her voice was starting to break down, though she wasn't tearing up. Yet.] I thought I'd get used to it, but it's so hard...
[Part of him briefly feels indignant because it almost sounded like he was accused of doing "things" during his absence when he has done nothing of the sort, but half-drunk as he may be, he manages to see what the issue is beyond this situation after a brief moment.
On one hand, he can be glad that Monika opened up about her issues, despite their discussions and agreement before beginning their relationship. On the other, it's difficult to offer a solution that aren't unfeasible like ignoring the urges the world forced onto them. Already he has avoided doing "things" with people when his mind wasn't affected, even with friends he regularly done with prior to this relationship. Easily done when he has no urges of the sort. Their permanent link was not only to make their bond closer but also so that she can share a part of his happiness even when he's elsewhere, but now he isn't certain if that has helped with lessening the jealousy or enforced it.
Of course, he still want to help it make things easier for her and not doubt at the fact that he truly does love her while at the same time not compromised himself too much from what he's allowed to do, but he's at a loss as to what to do.
Soundwave is silent for a few seconds, arms still wrapped around her.]
... Do you know that I love you?
[It's a silly question, considering that Monika could literally feel his emotions. She's always been the center of his spark, always, at all time.]
[ She closed her eyes and fought back the tears. Of course she knew. She could feel it, but she didn't even need to. She just knew. There was nothing rational about that. Well, most women would probably give a stern talking to to their boyfriend for bringing another woman home like that, even if she's just a friend...
But that should end there. It shouldn't bring about such painful emotions. Yet again, most women didn't have her background. ]
I know...
[ But just knowing something was never enough to push away all irrational fears, was it? More so when she came from a reality where she had always been in the shadow of everyone else. ]
I'm so afraid of losing you... That at any moment another woman will come and give the lie to the illusion I am. [She placed her hand upon his.] Ahaha, so much for me having healed, huh?
You are not an illusion, love. And I won't ever leave you for another.
[He hopes his words does help to reassure her once more that he is always ever faithful to her. They've done the four rites and soon they'll eventually going to go through the traditional human marriage, Soundwave doesn't love anybody like he does Monika. Nothing on this world or another could change that.
His arms around her tightens slightly more.]
Your 'healing' is still an ongoing process, Monika. ... We would need to build up your self-esteem some more.
[Soundwave breaks the embrace, but only so that he can look into her eyes, steppingto face in front of her and cupping hands on both side of her cheeks to coax her eyes open.]
You are not some side character in my optics, understand?
[ His word did help, more than he could imagine. He always found the right words for her, huh? Well, that wasn't the only factor. Being alone with her own thoughts, she was quick to imagine the worst possible outcomes. She was still so dependent on love-- On him. If he was to disappear...
Any healing, any progress she'd made would be all gone. That was wrong, she knew it. You could not depend so much on one person to the point your life would collapse without them. Maybe that, too, needed fixing.
But that was the only way she knew to love. ]
Ahaha, I feel so silly...
[ She smiled at him with tears in her eyes, before burying her head in his shoulder. ]
I do. I do... [She sniffled and took a deep breath, before trying to speak on a joking tone.] You sure you still don't have any regrets? You may have to deal with me having weird crisis like that for a while, ahaha...
[His arms wrap around her as she buries her face in his shoulder, brushing her head to comfort like how he's done many times to her before. It's something he's starting to realize the more he's done it, but he doesn't mind it at all. In some way, he can sympathize with her depending so much on one person. Perhaps not at the extreme where his entire life would collapse without that person. Regardless, he promised to not disappear on her, and he's done some studies to find a permanent way for them to live on this planet, after whenever the Cardinal Gem ascended.
That's something to worry about later.]
I am sure. I have already accepted that part of you is something I may have to deal with at times, have I not?
[ She smiled in his embrace, finally calming down. Gosh, she hated so much the way she could be when her emotions took over... She could see herself slip back into her old mindset so easily and quickly without the right kind of support. After a moment of silence, she pulled back away and looked up at her beloved. ]
Thank you, Soundwave. [She closed an eye in a wink.] You really are my hero always taking me back from the brink, ahaha...!
[What's a relationship without some fights? Fortunately, they both didn't say anything to each other that may cause too much regret and Monika had calmed down. And hey, there's that rare smile of his when Monika pulled away.]
If you say so. Shall we finally eat dinner together? And then...
[He leans closer to Monika, whisper to her ear in a low tone, fingers tugging lightly on her shirt.]
I want to eat you next. [It's easier to flirt and talk like this when he's drunk, huh.]
[ Monika laughed and blushed at the implications, before turning around towards the kitchen. ]
Monikas aren't part of one's recommended healthy diet. They can be the slightest bit difficult to digest. [She said on a joking tone before pressing a brief kiss on his cheek.] But they say when you can stomach them, they're an absolute delight~!
[ With a laugh, she then went to the kitchen to fetch the meal she'd prepared. As usual whenever she prepared something, it was vegetarian... But it was pretty good! She'd made some serious progress of late. ]
The weekly night dessert is what I looked forward the most.
[Continuing with his own joking tone, he then takes a seat at the table while he waits. Ever since Monika moved here, he's been eating more and more vegetarian meals than... None at all actually. Though just like any other meal he ate in his holoavatar, they benefit him none all but making Monika happy whenever he tried them.
So, when the dish is on the table, he doesn't wait to take a bite of Monika's cooking. A pleased hum emits after he swallowed.]
[ The benefit is all in the pleasure derived from eating fine dishes! Monika was very happy to see her cooking had gotten even better. ]
Meat substitutes on this world are amazing. They're a tad more expensive than the real thing, but the taste is virtually indistinguishable. The day we'll have children they'll be treated to the best dishes, ahaha~
[ Did she say that as a joke? Did she mean it? Unfortunately, that's impossible to know. ]
[ Oh... He caught up on that, huh? Well it's his fault for managing to put her in a good mood! ]
Mhm! [She replied with a nod and a smile.] Well not anytime soon of course... But it's something worth thinking about and discussing sometimes, don't you think?
[ She still wanted to have some year of freedom... And of course, he would have to approve too. She would never force him into becoming a father, of course. But there's no harm in planting the seeds of an idea, right? ]
[He more or less heard that Gembonded aren't capable of getting pregnant here, never mind that Soundwave is totally incapable of reproducing offsprings in a similar manner to human anyway. So, adoption seems like the most logical answer.
But that's all besides the point, there's still some uncertainty in him.]
Maybe. I am not certain I could take care of kids well.
[As if his Minicon friends never acted like bratty children before. He has some experience.]
[ She didn't mind all that much the inability to get pregnant. Well, she would have loved to become a mother the regular way... But there was so much going on well in her life, she wasn't going to complain about that. ]
Come now, I can already see you wearing a "#1 Dad" shirt. [She giggled.] Imagine all the children running after you!
[ The mental image was so adorable, she couldn't help but close her eyes and sigh happily. ]
[While Monika's in her happy daydream, Soundwave's eyes lowers as he tries to imagine such an image as well. He comes out of it with the total opposite of Monika's reaction.]
[ Oh no! What a fatal mistake he made in the midst of this emotional turmoil. For while Monika gets up to grab a bottle of wine, she does serve a glass for herself— And drink it!
It's pretty amazing how her alcohol resistance seems to get weaker with time. ]
Daddy Soundy has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?
[ She's not drunk yet, thankfully. So she hands him over his glass. ]
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[ She's gonna prepare the table with the silverware and all. What do you mean, silver is harmful to vampires? Maybe she should pass by a shop before he comes home, to get some silver bullets for a shotgun. If only there was a church she could stop by to get the water she'll have at table blessed... ]
Be careful though. Some girls are shameless when it comes to tricks. She could have said she hasn't found a place to stay simply because she hopes to spend the night in your bed.
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Your warning is noted. I doubt she has any such plans with me, and I know when someone's lying.
Plus, my bed is only reserved for you and me.
[Well, ever since their relationship became official he limits his bed to Monika only.]
As for dinner, it would be unnecessary to make it for three. I have the feeling she'll still be sleeping when I arrived. If you are still so inclined though, I won't stop you.
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Looking forward to see you~
[ Just don't bring back girls with you next time after a long absence, it's rude! ]
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He left the text on read, something Monika should be used to with him by now. He's not all that great at text conversation, still. Hours afterward, Soundwave finally returns, carries his drunk passed out friend with his holoavatar, greets her with a kiss if she's waiting for him at the front door, and then proceeds to tuck his new friend in himself at the free room. Once that's done, wherever Monika may be waiting, Soundwave finds her and hugs her from behind, pressing his face against her head.]
Monika...
[While the avatar doesn't reek of alcohol, all thanks to him being able to dematerialize and materialize the avatar at will for the stench to not stick, he does seem a bit woobly and not able to stand straight, slightly out of it.]
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She then continues preparing the table till he's done finding a spot for his new "friend." ]
It looks like you had fun over there.
[ Monika's voice is... Strange. She sounds like she's forcing herself to sound normal. And her entire body feels a lot stiffer than usual when he hugs her from behind.
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And it would be a lie to say that he didn't had fun. It has been a long while since Soundwave drank freely with someone. He knows better than to say that to Monika.]
... Sorry.
[He's not sure what else to say to her exactly. Soundwave doesn't feel like he's done any wrong, though failing to see her actual problem. It's not the first time he had to carry someone home either to theirs or his place after a late night (though it is technically the first on this world) and it just so happened that his newfound drinking partner is a girl and a new arrival without a home. The latter is the main reason why he invited her. Regardless, he could tell Monika is still mad at him through their link.]
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[ She knew he hadn't done anything wrong. But she hoped at least he would understand why bringing in a girl like that after a pretty long separation was in bad taste, especially considering what her insecurities were. The side-character, always on the sidelines and watching others get their happy ending. ]
I know I shouldn't be jealous, you didn't do anything wrong... [She sighed. Maybe she should be frank. It wasn't healthy to keep in all those doubts inside, was it?] But it's getting hard on me, you know? Our "open" relationship. We agreed to it and due to the nature of this world, it's hard to do things otherwise.
[ She closed her hands into fists and looked down. ]
Yet, it hurts so much whenever I think of you doing "things" with someone else...! [Her voice was starting to break down, though she wasn't tearing up. Yet.] I thought I'd get used to it, but it's so hard...
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On one hand, he can be glad that Monika opened up about her issues, despite their discussions and agreement before beginning their relationship. On the other, it's difficult to offer a solution that aren't unfeasible like ignoring the urges the world forced onto them. Already he has avoided doing "things" with people when his mind wasn't affected, even with friends he regularly done with prior to this relationship. Easily done when he has no urges of the sort. Their permanent link was not only to make their bond closer but also so that she can share a part of his happiness even when he's elsewhere, but now he isn't certain if that has helped with lessening the jealousy or enforced it.
Of course, he still want to help it make things easier for her and not doubt at the fact that he truly does love her while at the same time not compromised himself too much from what he's allowed to do, but he's at a loss as to what to do.
Soundwave is silent for a few seconds, arms still wrapped around her.]
... Do you know that I love you?
[It's a silly question, considering that Monika could literally feel his emotions. She's always been the center of his spark, always, at all time.]
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But that should end there. It shouldn't bring about such painful emotions. Yet again, most women didn't have her background. ]
I know...
[ But just knowing something was never enough to push away all irrational fears, was it? More so when she came from a reality where she had always been in the shadow of everyone else. ]
I'm so afraid of losing you... That at any moment another woman will come and give the lie to the illusion I am. [She placed her hand upon his.] Ahaha, so much for me having healed, huh?
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[He hopes his words does help to reassure her once more that he is always ever faithful to her. They've done the four rites and soon they'll eventually going to go through the traditional human marriage, Soundwave doesn't love anybody like he does Monika. Nothing on this world or another could change that.
His arms around her tightens slightly more.]
Your 'healing' is still an ongoing process, Monika. ... We would need to build up your self-esteem some more.
[Soundwave breaks the embrace, but only so that he can look into her eyes, steppingto face in front of her and cupping hands on both side of her cheeks to coax her eyes open.]
You are not some side character in my optics, understand?
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Any healing, any progress she'd made would be all gone. That was wrong, she knew it. You could not depend so much on one person to the point your life would collapse without them. Maybe that, too, needed fixing.
But that was the only way she knew to love. ]
Ahaha, I feel so silly...
[ She smiled at him with tears in her eyes, before burying her head in his shoulder. ]
I do. I do... [She sniffled and took a deep breath, before trying to speak on a joking tone.] You sure you still don't have any regrets? You may have to deal with me having weird crisis like that for a while, ahaha...
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That's something to worry about later.]
I am sure. I have already accepted that part of you is something I may have to deal with at times, have I not?
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[ She smiled in his embrace, finally calming down. Gosh, she hated so much the way she could be when her emotions took over... She could see herself slip back into her old mindset so easily and quickly without the right kind of support. After a moment of silence, she pulled back away and looked up at her beloved. ]
Thank you, Soundwave. [She closed an eye in a wink.] You really are my hero always taking me back from the brink, ahaha...!
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If you say so. Shall we finally eat dinner together? And then...
[He leans closer to Monika, whisper to her ear in a low tone, fingers tugging lightly on her shirt.]
I want to eat you next. [It's easier to flirt and talk like this when he's drunk, huh.]
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Monikas aren't part of one's recommended healthy diet. They can be the slightest bit difficult to digest. [She said on a joking tone before pressing a brief kiss on his cheek.] But they say when you can stomach them, they're an absolute delight~!
[ With a laugh, she then went to the kitchen to fetch the meal she'd prepared. As usual whenever she prepared something, it was vegetarian... But it was pretty good! She'd made some serious progress of late. ]
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[Continuing with his own joking tone, he then takes a seat at the table while he waits. Ever since Monika moved here, he's been eating more and more vegetarian meals than... None at all actually. Though just like any other meal he ate in his holoavatar, they benefit him none all but making Monika happy whenever he tried them.
So, when the dish is on the table, he doesn't wait to take a bite of Monika's cooking. A pleased hum emits after he swallowed.]
These taste better than the last one.
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[ The benefit is all in the pleasure derived from eating fine dishes! Monika was very happy to see her cooking had gotten even better. ]
Meat substitutes on this world are amazing. They're a tad more expensive than the real thing, but the taste is virtually indistinguishable. The day we'll have children they'll be treated to the best dishes, ahaha~
[ Did she say that as a joke? Did she mean it? Unfortunately, that's impossible to know. ]
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...... You mean we'll be adopting children?
[His face remain impassive but there's a dash of uncertainty in his tone, whether to take Monika seriously or not.]
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Mhm! [She replied with a nod and a smile.] Well not anytime soon of course... But it's something worth thinking about and discussing sometimes, don't you think?
[ She still wanted to have some year of freedom... And of course, he would have to approve too. She would never force him into becoming a father, of course. But there's no harm in planting the seeds of an idea, right? ]
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But that's all besides the point, there's still some uncertainty in him.]
Maybe. I am not certain I could take care of kids well.
[As if his Minicon friends never acted like bratty children before. He has some experience.]
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Come now, I can already see you wearing a "#1 Dad" shirt. [She giggled.] Imagine all the children running after you!
[ The mental image was so adorable, she couldn't help but close her eyes and sigh happily. ]
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... That is an horrifying image.
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Daddy Soundy~ [She giggled.] Gosh, I can't wait...
[ She opens her eyes anew and looks at him with a smile. Their future certainly seems to be a bright one! ]
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And wish to abort this subject. At the same time, he doesn't want to squander her apparent enthusiasm at the idea.]
Hmm.... Monika, could you grab me a drink?
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It's pretty amazing how her alcohol resistance seems to get weaker with time. ]
Daddy Soundy has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?
[ She's not drunk yet, thankfully. So she hands him over his glass. ]
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